Finally one night after my normal 2:30 am pain it just didn't stop. I lay there three hours just counting until 5:30 because I felt like that was when I could decently call Gillian. I called her at 5:30 and she said something like, "It's okay. I've been lying here awake since 2:30." So she took me to the emergency room at the hospital and they gave me IV with some liquids and pain meds.... I can't remember the whole sequence of how it went now, but I was quickly referred for an endoscopy, then an ultrasound, and eventually to a surgeon and got that puppy out! Oh! and it was one gallstone as big as a chicken egg! Maybe I can find the photo somewhere and add it to this post. delicious!
I had a rough time in the hospital and ended up staying a couple of days instead of getting out later that same day. Once I got out I healed pretty quickly, went back to work the day after I got out of the hospital and got better. I think part of the rough time in the hospital was just feeling very lonely and sad. I did have friends who helped me, drove me to the hospital, took me home, called me, etc. and I still felt really alone. Big events like that are times I notice not having a partner. I have friends who help me and I love and appreciated them, but it's not the same as I imagine having a supportive partner will be, whom you assume will be the one to do those things for and with you. I will probably never know.
WELL..... eventually after I got better I got fatter again! Imagine that! So here I am floating around 210 and uncomfortable. I feel like I am WAY too fat if my belly sticks out farther than my boobs, and it does. I feel like I am WAY WAY too fat, if my arms kind of rest on my belly roll and they do!
So I am trying to start getting back on track. I am on DAY 34 OF NO SODA. I am on a debate of trying 30 days with NO CANDY or NO ICE CREAM. I am stating that it's only 30 days, right? I can avoid a food for 30 days! I went years with no soda before. I went a year and a half with no gluten. I went like FIVE YEARS with a sweet only once a week, and the same with fries. I know that I am internally a disciplined person - I just have to exercise it! ... Okay, I haven't had any ice cream today. That's DAY ONE. My exercise in discipline and good food choices is that I will go at least 30 days with NO ICE CREAM. Maybe I will go a little over and say that I will have no ice cream until my birthday trip to California in October (pulls out the planner) that's 41 DAYS. I can do that!
Okay, I on writing time at Rachael's and even though my 30 minutes isn't up I am done writing here. I will go check my other blog and see if I posted the gallstone pic....
